"Superwoman"

No- I don't have the flu- I am just sore!
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Today I walked into my workout class for the first time since I had my baby... depressing how out of shape I am but motivating when I looked around.

There were obvious reasons why someone would be motivated- the music- the atmosphere- the weights etc. But for me it was something different.... It was the variety of women that were taking the class with me. You ask why?? That is a random answer!! Well here is why:

When I looked around I saw young women just starting out, middle aged women trying to find their way, and older women who have been through a lot. I saw teachers, nurses, stay at home moms, students, even property managers. Even deeper; I saw military wives who brave being home alone, teenagers who deal with high school drama, police officers wives who sometimes feel like single moms...--- I saw women who are fitness freaks and women who struggle with their weight.  All in all, we are women from different walks of life. Women who start their days and finish their days by checking boxes off of their to do lists in their heads. Wake up, get the kids ready for school, get to work, pick the kids up, go to the gym, grocery shop, cook dinner, bathe the children, do the laundry, etc. repeat!

I got to thinking about how fierce the "Woman" actually is. I once read a monologue called "I am an Emotional Creature", I cannot believe someone could sum up a "woman" so well: Someone who has an intuition like no other, feels things so much more intense then men do, feelings "pulse through us"...While that monologue pumps me up about being a woman.. there are sometimes I hate being a woman as well. One of the main reasons is because  I feel there are so many expectations of us- by our husbands, families, peers, jobs, and society as a whole.

While I stood there trying to keep up with the routine of the workout class I couldn't help but reflect on my life as a new mom- How in the world am I going to do this? How in the world am I going to go back to work full time- pick up my son from daycare- work out to get back into shape- cook dinner- be the perfect wife, daughter, sister, friend... and MORE??  I kind of started to freak out... I didn't know if it was my fear of my new role or the workout that was getting harder by the second.  Then I realized it was a mixture of both as my heart started to race.  As nervous as I am about all of it- I am calmed when I read Proverbs.


Proverbs 13 describes a fierce woman-- one that I want to strive to be... but I want to focus on verses 13-21:

¹³ She selects wool and flax
    and works with eager hands.
¹⁴ She is like the merchant ships,
    bringing her food from afar.
¹⁵ She gets up while it is still night;
    she provides food for her family
    and portions for her female servants.
¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it;
    out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
¹⁷ She sets about her work vigorously;
    her arms are strong for her tasks.
¹⁸ She sees that her trading is profitable,
    and her lamp does not go out at night.
¹⁹ In her hand she holds the distaff
    and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
²⁰ She opens her arms to the poor
    and extends her hands to the needy.
²¹ When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
    for all of them are clothed in scarlet.

WOW- How intense! This is a woman who has it together! A woman who provides for her family, gives it her all, gives to the needy etc. Then I realized just I how I am going to do it.. I am going to try my best to be the woman that is spoke about in this scripture. My own version of "Superwoman"--I may not get everything right, do everything by the book or have an "S" on my chest... but I will be trying.

  "I am not saying I am superwoman...but I am saying that you have never seen me and superwoman in the same room together ;)"